First ever Reddit post so please be nice. I am stuck and I don't know what to do anymore.I [23F] am very much in love with my boyfriend [20M] I have been with for almost a year now. We recently moved in together (I know a lot of people felt it was too soon but due to his other living circumstances falling to bits, I didn't feel like I had much choice but to say yes when he asked).Ever since we started living together the problems we used to have are getting even worse.He has severe anxiety that he leaves untreated, and I have pretty bad spells of depression that I am currently getting treatment for. He has helped me so much with my problems, always being there for me and being a shoulder to cry on etc. I find it extremely difficult helping him with and understanding his problems, as he says his anxiety makes it impossible to say how he feels. This causes a big issue between us as I never know whats going on, just that he is upset a lot of the time. When I try to talk to him he either sits there in silence or just cries and makes me feel like a bitch for asking. He constantly feels like hes going to fail at everything, but never does anything to help his situation.He has no license or a job apart from helping out at my parents business to pay his rent. This is a big issue for me and means that we are together ALL THE TIME. Except for when he has sport commitments which is basically the only time I get to myself. Not that I really mind, I love him falling asleep next to me every night and enjoy his company most of the time. But sometimes I feel like I need more space, which I could have if he could drive and go and do his own thing. I never get to even hang out with my best friend without him being there and I feel like my bestie resents me for it.I feel like I constantly have to nag him to make a start in his life and make some positive changes so that we can be together and build our life together. He always makes promises to change and be better but nothing ever changes and we end up having the same argument a week later. He has no motivation to do anything to better his life and it makes me very frustrated as he is very bright and could do anything he wanted if he just set his mind to it. I am very driven and career focused as I want to be able to do what I love in life. He supports my career choices but doesn't make any moves on his own as he "doesn't know what he wants to do". He says he wants to spend the rest of his life with me but makes no action so that we can. I can't continue like this and I have told him that.He also tells little white lies a lot of the time to get out of stuff. This bothers me as it makes me question how much I trust him. He says its just to protect me but I don't see how it does that.We are both heavy pot smokers and I feel this could be a lot the problem. Recently we have stopped having sex as often as we would, instead of once a day its more like once a week. This makes me feel really neglected and like he's not attracted to me anymore, even though when we discussed it he insists its not me and that he's just not feeling like sex at the moment, I think his libido is effected by his marijuana intake but he says its not. This is also an issue for me because I have an insanely high sex drive. Another problem added to the list of problems.Maybe our age difference is an issue, I see myself falling into another relationship where I am a replacement for his Mother.I'm not one to normally post about my problems on the internet but I'm stuck on what to do next and don't have any friends that I can talk to about the situation, as we have the same friends for the most part.I feel very alone in this relationship at the moment and its not right. But no matter how much I bring it up nothing changes. Am I being impatient? Am I just nagging him too much? I don't know if I can end things with him because I know it will destroy him emotionally. I also love him a lot and want to work things out.Any advice would be appreciated.Thanks via /r/relationship_advice http://ift.tt/2rhkOaY
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