How do I accept having learning disabilities?

I'm deeply incompetent at everything I do. In fact, I'm so incompetent that it warrants a medical diagnosis. Nonverbal learning disability, with a global IQ floating around 80-85. Everything I do reminds me of my failures and limitations as a person, so I don't do much.I tried doing community college but it took me right back to when I was five slamming my face against the pavement. I don't know. I don't know how to be a person. I live with my parents, I can (but shouldn't) drive, and yeah I just. Don't really know what to do with myself I guess.I have no hobbies, no friends, no interests. I work, go home and stare at the ceiling, sleep, and do it all again. I'm just waiting to die. A lifetime of pills and therapy haven't helped. My life is stretching out in front of me as this big undefinable mass filled with things I don't want and people I at best don't care for.Everything just hurts so much. It makes me feel hurt and frustrated and upset. I've been this way since as long as I can remember. I don't know what to do. I'm not sure if I should be put into a long-term care facility or what.I don't really have anything to live for. I don't really have any attachment to people and I don't really want anything. I'm not religious. Definitely don't want kids. I'm rambling. What the fuck do I do? I don't have the nerve to kill myself. via /r/Advice http://ift.tt/2tgIOsy